Yesterday i have a little fight with my mom... i didn't mean it. i was just upset. Why we should open the shop even on holiday? Even on Lebaran day?? Couldn't we just have a little rest? I mean it's holiday!!!
It is really a bother when i spare my time in the special day and then a stranger came and say "i wanna buy this i wanna buy that" Oh please. Just leave us alone for a day! What a careless customers. All i want is just a break okay. I wanna live as normal as a family sometime.
It has already been upsetting people coming around every time i eat my lunch and breakfast and even dinner. It is just distressful okay. I'm getting hate everyone come even my own family due to the carelessness of the nice customers. Thank you. You give us money but you ruined my life. For that information i already close the gate so they cant come in but you know what they always insist to come in. What a pleasure!
And why can't my mom listen to me to close the gate to have a break? You know lunch break? She is as hard as the customers who insisted to always open the gate.
I'm so upset.
Okay so i was upset to my mom. But you know she is my mom whatever happen. I couldn't take it more than a day. But i never have courage to apologize either. So here's the idea come. I bought her chocolate and made a little not behind it so she can read it rather than heard it. You know... "i'm sorry".
Because she is my mom of course she forgave me. But i feel bad for her to have such a brat like me you know.
I'm sick. I mean it. Not an decease but as emotionally ill. Often i can't control my emotion and i can't focus. I don't even have a goal in my life, no motivation, no inspiration, no boyfriend, no awards, no love, nothing. I have nothing.
ps. the pic is just an illustration though i wish they sell one here
