Sometimes we live in sorrow, unpleasant matters called misfortune. But actually when i think more about it i never lack of fortunes knowing that there're more people poorer than me, more selfish and angry.
I sometimes wish that i can live like normal people while i don't even sure what normal is. I guess no one is normal because no one exactly the same. So when i want to be normal maybe it's inverse of normal. Normal is just flowing with the river named destiny.
Often i maybe we feel uneasy living, scared, angry, hatred, sorrow, but the more we got difficulties the more a small happiness make us feel wonderful. A small touch, a small hug, a small kiss. A little careness. I mostly ignore those things but i really grateful that i can still have them. Have a little family, Have a friend. Have my heart away from hartred. Although there's selfishness stand till. I really feel grateful i have my life no matter what people judge. I want to grateful my life with a little complaining to cacth more careness from people close to me. A little pampered while hiding tears.
I have one desire... I want to hold you very tight and be by your side forever.
I want to make some love blossom in my heart. Yet i'm not ready giving my all to that wish. I'm not really ready to rely on anyone. I can trust no one. Should i pitty my self? Mmm... i don't suppose to do that though. Yet i'm very grateful with my life, ain't i?
Just life with people who care about me makes me feel safe.
Just stay the way it is though i have a hundred tons of complainings. I just wish i could live in people careness. Giving and taking love. I want to learn that too.
In my normal life.
