Happy Birthday...

For you who have been my close friend... i really want to say happy birthday because it's your birthday today... somehow i just can't forget and always hope that you'll be okay. Even if i hurt you, even if you don't offer forgiveness. I hope you'll find what you're looking for... I hope that every goodness will come to you. And i hope you can be with someone who love you completely...

Anyway, Happy Birthday. Wish you all the best and may God always bless you, even if you don't believe.

Happy Lebaran Day!!

Well, it's been a really long time for me to not posting here... though i'm not sure anybody really read my blog but "i really don't care as long as i can post"... i know, what a sick of me.

I have a lot of story to tell, there're so many things have happened around me. You know, life.

After a month of pasting finally come the Day called Lebaran Day in my language,

You know, i truly have some stressed conditions  this month. Start with my college's slimy tactics of ruining my time and my parents' pocket. Second, my auntie didn't really care about that.Third, my parents forgot about my birthday (even until now). Fourth, i am still single.What A Mess!

I did much complaining everyday until this second... (just see what i write above)

Finally, finally, the day of forgiveness for everybody has come...

The question is...

"Does every single person forgive me ?"

Actually I'm not really sure if i have already forgive "everyone" also...

Like the one who broke my heart, or the one who turned me into "a-single-life-everyday", or the swindler who ruined my life and i've been cursing. Especially, have i really forgive my self who could fallen for those misfortunes and still trap on its. Oh man, am really some genius stupid?

How about you, guys and girls, have you really forgive anyone including yourself?

Love letter

Dear my Sylar, 

I don't know you yet.

Even all that we've been through.

I never be there to be your light.

I never be there to loving you as i could do.

I never be there just to stand by your side.

But i wanna know you. If only you give me a chance to.

Even when you've become Sylar again.

There's always forgiveness.

I can heal my heart again. As long as you don't leave my side.

Oh, Gabriel... I know how sweet you are.

It's just me who don't have enough courage to tell you the truth.

That... No matter what... I'll always have forgiveness for you.

That's the thing i could not understand but sure it is real.

And please forgive me for my selfishness... to desire having you alone.

And for the fear of losing you because you have deny me once. You could do that twice.

All i've ever think is just how i supposed to be with you.

Just for few words.

Just your few words can save my worst day ever. Even there's no words of "love".

I really love you.

If only i could let the bird deliver this letter to you.

If only you could know what i was feeling about you.

If only this would bring you to me...

I'll giving every love i have. Just for you to feel safe and sound.

リョウ君へ

Ryosuke kun... apa aku benar-benar jatuh cinta?

Atau aku malah terlalu tergila-gila >> ?

Perlahan-lahan dia mendatangi mimpiku.

Semakin dekat... dekat... dan lebih dekat...

山田さんへ

今私は　悩んでるです。

私、本当には　日本人を　愛したいです。でも　日本人と　私が　違う過ぎる。　そんなこと　私は　もう知ってる。それでも　この　甘い夢と　言うか　まだ消えなくて　忘れないです。そして　その　日本人は　山田さんしか　考えられないです。

こんなことも　ありえないなんて　もう　知ってる、でもね　私どうしても信じたいです。だから あの笑顔が。。。その優しい微笑みが　とても大好きです。