Words that can never be said.

たまには言えたいことがある。言えなくても大丈夫。いつか誰かを気づいたなってきっとそう信じます。

Sometimes there're words that can not i say. Even so, i thought that i'll be okay. Someday i believe that someone will realize it.

毎日、毎月、毎年そんなことが自分をずっと言う。

Everyday, every month, every year... that's what i always said to my self.

でもやっぱり何も変わらない。私はまだこのままで一人で。

But the reality is never change. I always be my self only.

私に力をもらった人も私のそばにいらない。

The one that can cheer me up doesn't want to stand by me.

さあどうする本当分からない。時々は辛いけどもう我慢した。時々は泣きたいけど泣けない。

Well, i don't even know what to do. Sometimes i endure the pain. Sometime i want to cry but i just can't.

自分は誰かをそばにいたいけど誰も来ない。

I want somebody to stay with me but no body has ever come.

だからもう何も言うな！

So, stop telling me what to do and not to do!

兄さんに届けたい言葉

tonight i still think about you

tonight i still wait for you

tonight i still hope that i can have you

"Give me a perfect day, oh i'll stay by your side..." 

I have no other option but to always think about you.

And i have no other desire but to always stay beside you.

Also, i have no other word but i love you.

My Tragic Story Part II

Well, hello.

Today i feel better. Although i still can't really asleep. I can't believe i have some insomnia... again. And more.

I just can't forget those sad face, because of me.

I feel really so sorry for them. 本当にごめなさい。

I would do everything to pay it. No matter what. I'll work harder. I'll quit school if it's needed. I don't care anymore what can happened to me. When i feel this lost. When i feel want to run so far away. When i want to just give it up. I don't care anymore.

However, no matter how far i want give it up. How far i want to hide. I wish that... i won't be alone.

Don't ask me if i'm alright because the truth is i am not. Don't let me lie and laugh. Because i feel more want to fall and cry.

Just stay with me and say that everything's gonna be okay.

 大丈夫は　本当便利な言葉でしょ。大丈夫キットと　聞きたいこと。ただ大丈夫と　いえなさい。

Maybe i'm really weak, i don't know if i'm this weak.

I do can't let you see my sad face. Can't let you know what are my feelings right know.

But if only you just stay by my side... and hold my hand tight. You'll see. I'm not as strong as you see.

I don't laugh as you see. I'm not as sweet as you see. I'm not me as you usually see,

Then, will you hide with me?